February 2012
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“Love takes courage. I congratulate those who take that risk.”
2012
So I know I’ve been MIA, but thats okay. After all the crazy events of 2011, I am determined to start the year off with getting things right with myself.
For the first time in my 27 years, i have finally slowed down from being the chaotic, dramatic, boy-crazy girl that I have been. I, for one mainly thank the anti-Viagra (depo-provera) for slowing my girly hormones down. It’s pretty...
January 2012
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Eleven Hints for Life
“Eleven Hints for Life”
It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
The best kind of friend is the kind...
December 2011
11 posts
Wedding Bells
In the midst of my crazy love life, I’ve been hearing the sounds of church bells and the wedding march in my head these past 2 weeks. Its not like I am some crazy person… but sometimes i would just be sitting somewhere and the wedding song would pop up. Kind of like those songs that get stuck in your head that you wish you can think of any other song so that you can hear something...
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“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is...”
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R.e.s.p.e.c.t
How many cheating men later, instead of ignoring their sorry asses, I finally learned how to use my voice.
Telling Oceanside my real feelings went better than I expected. I told him exactly what I wanted to say. Guess what I found out? Yes, the world didn’t end and that I’m still alive. Even better, is that he proved me right, respected my decision and respected me.
Already I...
Honesty is the best policy
I know… Somewhere in this blog I quoted that, “honesty is the best policy” in terms for finding happiness. Talking to some of my good friends, I have come to realize that all this time I have been unhappy, I’ve been lying to myself. Lying to myself about the curses vexed on me. Lying to myself bout the things i deserve and dont deserve. The answer should always be simple...
The Curse
I think i am cursed. It took me 5 years to realize it, but i think i am truly cursed.
Cheating on my boyfriend of 5 years, 5 years ago has led me to be the “other woman”. Intentionally and unintentionally rain or shine i always found myself in that situation. Just when i think im clicking with a guy.
*POOF*
The asshole suddenly has a girlfriend or a wife. (If not, trying to use...
update.
never got to finish the story with stephen… but yes he ended up introducing us to his gf. And his cousin never showed up. Add insult to injury he texted my best friend that she was “sexy”. You get what you wish for when you come to see what you were hoping to see.
p.s did not make friends with his gf.
shes was pretty ugly anyways. lol
November 2011
5 posts
Elephant in the room
Tonight will be a celebratory dinner for one of my friends. I was debating whether or not to go. If i do go i get to finally see the truth about Stephen and his cousin. If you havent caught up to the story well here it is in a nutshell:
-Stephen - best friends turned secret FWB. On and Off feelings for him this past year. Decided to get over him when i recently found out he has a g/f through...
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Should i give up or should i just keep chasing...
Its not that i am in love or have any liking to any particular person as of this moment. However, this past year is making me doubt if i will ever find love.
As Adele said, “Should i give up? Or should i just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere?”
I admit that i am a hopeless romantic. Even though i don’t wear my heart on my sleeve. i believe that love exists....
“Sometimes, i wish i was invisible.
But you can’t change if you were...”
October 2011
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First cut is the deepest
Today as i was cleaning my room i came fatefully came across your picture. You were my first, my last, you were once my everything. Its been 5 years and you’ve been married twice and now have a beautiful baby girl. As for me, im still in the same place. Single and still experiencing and learning about my life.
As i stare at your picture, you’re wearing your handsome military...
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“The hardest-learned lesson: that people have only their kind of love to give,...”
– Mignon McLaughlin
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“To find someone who will love you for no reason, and to shower that person with...”
– ~Robert Braul
Snooki and Vinny
It’s official me and Stephen are partners at my friends wedding. We had to play a game today at our entourage wedding to figure who are partners were. Game rules was to figure out which celebrity couple names were on our backs. Find your match by asking questions who you were. Go figure: we were Snooki and Vinny. The Costumes that basically lead us to hooking up again on Halloween last...
“I keep wondering when will that love arrive? When will it be my turn to be...”
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September 2011
38 posts
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Stop teasing me
It been a month since I got out of the online dating world. Frankly I did all I could to maximize my world wide web dating experience. Messaged and shown interest in the guys I approved of, nice to the ones I didn’t like, and probably out of 100 men I got a 5% success rate. Out of the 5%, 1% actually lasted a couple of conversations with me. I ended up with zero dates, lots of creepy guys...
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It is what it is
Love is a game whether we choose to accept it or not. There are no rules but rather guidelines that we can choose to follow. Exceptions apply only if you are one of the super attractive or incredibly awesome personality. For the rest of us, we have to keep up on these “suggestions” of love. There’s a reason they exist. What makes me really annoyed are those who are just really...
“Don’t be mad at the game because you have no game.”
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“Forgiving is not something you do for someone else. It is something you do for...”
– Carol Luebering
and i should've known you'd always be an asshole.
All i gotta say is that i used to think i’d be fine without knowing if you had a girlfriend or not. Because the better part of me always believe you wouldn’t use me like that again. That you treated me with the respect to stop this when the game was over. This little secret of a love-non love affair we had going on. It was fine when we didn’t have ties.
Bet you thought i...
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Sweet Reverie
Last night i met the most amazing guy. A stranger He was about 5’9, dark short hair, athletic built, with a smile that could brighten any room. The kind of man i’ve been searching for very long time. When he hugged me i felt the sincerity and warmth that filled my body with tingles and butterflies.
He whispered sweet words that resonated care and wanting. This human being whoms...
am i the only one who gets angry at themselves for...
Hacked: Post 5 - "You Don't Have A Boyfriend"
In the heat of the moment.
Him: “You don’t have a boyfriend passed 3 months not because you don’t find the right ones. It’s cause you’re scared to keep the right ones.”
And are YOU the right one?
